I haven't felt good today..I think the sleepless nights of the last two weeks have caught up with me. My emotions are running high as I think of what the next week holds. I struggle with what this will mean to me as a women as the changes occur in my body. I worry about my professional career and all the hard work that I have put into it the last two years. I see doors closing that I have painfully kept open as I have tried to move forward personally and professionally and although my faith reassures me..I am sad. I have felt that my life has been on hold for years...cautiously moving forward in order to make sure that I was always doing my part. The thought of another year of uncertaintity feels overwhelming and everything inside of me is screaming for this to not be real. I know that I will be blessed with the strength to do this but for right now, this moment..I don't want to.
The love that has already been sent my way is so humbling and so very much needed. Every day I come home to a treat of some kind on my doorstep. People I have loved but lost contact with have called or texted me and reminded me of my strength and of thier love for me. Never underestimate the power of a simple act of kindness. There are wounds that words
cannot describe but that are soothed by simple acts of love. Today is a hard day but tomorrow the sun will shine again and I will gain strength from surviving the storm. As it says in the song I added..."but for now...just let me cry."
My love, my admiration, and my gratitude for each of you is in my heart. Cyndi