Never ignore a person who loves you, cares for you, and misses you. Because one day you might wake up from your sleep and realize that you lost the moon while counting the stars.~Unknown

Thursday, December 16, 2010

It's not always going to be easy for me to express my feelings but today is a good day so I will try. No one ever expects to hear the words that I have heard these last two weeks. Cancer? I'm too children need me...I need my grandchildren...Who would think of such a thing. I've had my share of trials and maybe had become complacent that the Lord would 'cut me a break' of sorts.

It's amazing what one word can do to your heart and the feelings sheltered there. I feel all the things Katie spoke of but there is one truth that I know and beleive with all my heart and that is this. My trials have been difficult and painful and ones that I pray regularly that I won't ever have to face again. But with that said I have to add the most important piece. I am grateful that the Lord had the confidence in me to bless my life with the things that would move me towards being a more loving, compassionate, empathetic human being. Through no other means could I have gained the love for others that I feel. So I add my feelings about having cancer to that equation. Do I want it? Am I experiencing fear? Do I cry? Of course the hard emotions are part of this experience. Most importantly though I know that this trial will also become one of my "hard blessings" because I know that my compassion, love, and acceptance of others will increase and God willing, I will be given opportunities both professionally and personally to touch another life when they too hear that fear word Cancer.

I am humbled by the show of love and support from family and friends and even strangers. I thank you, I love you, and know without a doubt that I will survive this under the wings of your love.

I love music so when I post a song...I hope you will listen and that it will carry a messsage of hope and courage into your own lives.

Much love,

1 comment:

  1. amazing cyndi - your faith is perfect. thanks for your example. stay positive and love life! your children think the world of you - as do the rest of us!!